Exactly when it happens will remain a mystery to you, although subtle signs were all around. Sure, if you look at photographs it can be seen, but what if you amazingly avoided the dreaded film?
Bones may creak a little more, your eyes are less focused, hair amazingly appears where before was lacking, while the hair you prided yourself on wanes. Your children became adults themselves bearing the next generation in front of you.
But in spite of all that, inside somewhere you are still feeling the joy of youth and find inspiration in daily life. Denial is the best anti-aging medicine I know of. It can work for as long as the body-mind connection promotes it.
But then something eventually comes along which points out your vulnerability and prods you into accepting the inevitable...you have in fact....aged gracefully. Well, at least that is my take on it and I am sticking to it.
Today I am on a clear liquid diet. Why? You inquire! Because I have crossed the threshold of no longer denying the dreaded colonoscopy and endoscopy so many valiant others before me endured. Am I being a sissy...perhaps, but I don't "do" doctors, meds, or testing, normally and would like to continue doing so.
I have to admit, I feel great not digesting so much food and perhaps will continue to cut down after this event is passed. I understand that people who consume little food tend to live longer, but then why do so many die from starvation? Hum!
I have also found that food consumption, consumes, a lot of time; from thinking about it, to shopping, preparing, eating and cleaning up. Hence my free time to blog more today.
I certainly am not hungry, but do miss the sensation of solid food in my mouth.
At lunch with friends yesterday I was informed by a "c" veteran that the experience is rather pleasant, after the prep that it. She said it was the best sleep she ever had and she actually looks forward to going the next time. I highly doubt I will feel the same but nice to know.
So here I am will time on my hands until 4pm when all the fun begins. So now that I have whined a bit, perhaps I will go be productive and finish cleaning out the closet in the hall. I guess one of the side benefits is all this danged extra energy to use up.
Have a great day, and be sure to take care of your health. Are you putting off something in your life that needs taken care of? Remember forewarned is forearmed.
And never forget...you only as old as you feel!
I will be thinking of you and praying that all goes well with your tests. I have to add besides all the things that go wrong with our bodies as we age, age really is a day to day thing. It's not the candles that show up on our cakes every year, it's how old do we feel each and every day. Some days it might be 21 and some days it might be 90. As always Nora, you always look fabulous!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Kim... you always look beautiful. There is something wonderful about growing older; it is the recognition of gained knowledge; it is the art of letting go and it is certainly about greeting it with a sense of humor like the lady in the picture....got to admire her grit and inner child! I'll see you Thursday when all of this will be a thing of the past! Love you and my thoughts are with you
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